i am writing here to examine my faults… and to let other people see them clearly.  i already know what many of them are… i am neurotic, i care far too much about what other people think of me, i obsess over finding the right words, i replay the past in my mind (and always forget to remember the bad parts), i dont listen to music as often as i used to, i smoke too much, i drink too much (though a lot less than years ago), i have a weakness for food (prepping, sauteeing, cooking, baking, simmering, plating, and of course, eating), i forget my boundaries, i lose my temper, i am selfish, i fall in Love too easily (with life, with friends, with the earth, with my dogs, with my partner), and i am far too indecisive.  i am a mess of negatives, and i hope in this space to sort out all the clutter and find the gorgeousness of my imperfections.  this is my offering.  my palms are face up.